Now

as it stands now

clear and done

all this time

wasted

slaughtered

put on fire…

all these years

turned to ashes

my selfish being

caught and strangled

now burning down

o2, 03

sitting on my couch

sipping my yummy cup of tea

smoking and coughing…

and coughing again

and after tonight

did i realize

when the mist clears down

sitting on my couch

sipping my cup of tea

everything is fine

you sit here and smoke a joint

and wake up tomorrow

catch a flight

everything is fine

roars aloud the ice desert

opens its arms wide

mocks at the ashes

now turned white

come freeze your burning self

freeze it to death

if at all

to let it off..

your shoulders now tired

shattered

call for

the ultimate

The pearl beach

the three of us now dazed
in the late afternoon mire
decided to walk down the beach
a seamless beauty.. i was going to see
Now absorbed by constant to and fro..
thoughts poured like swarm of bees
the utmost vulnerable sections of our mind
driven by whatever we could find
to drink and fill our sacks
so the journey could last for a while

one, drooping over the luscious flowers...
or the clouds made patterns in your eyes
sometimes startled by play full fields
and the water flowing down...
Would deviate your path every now and then..
Until you captured every moment..
Where memories fails to play a part..

Hopping up and down was other..
his bare foot caressing pieces of land
softly squishing and dancing to his voice...
Notes fell like dew..
Tenderly waking the morning flower

recollecting every piece every spot
from wandering way too far...my mind
now stuck on one and two
counted each step we took
Withholding every thought every moment
from crumbling the joy of time

After walking an hour or two
there came a distant land
dabbled with green flora
and the scent of disconnected sand
Followed the infinte ocean
where images merged with water..
not a sound or soul

i stood in reclusive awe
as the wave emerged undaunted
and washed over, with every drop
slipped like sand all my wisdom
now scattered in the vaunt

the shells must still be there
lost so long now a wave must have
driven them to dry sand

shadow

i saw a shadow tonight
a shadow of me walking down...
taking each step.. looking around..
eyes never caught a glimpse...

and i see many people around...
voices and laughters and tales lost and found..
people that fought and loved..
and fought again...

my hands reached for the empty space... and lapsed
and yet no one could see...
i was just a shadow indeed...
travelled through time.. lost in haze..
waiting for none to come around..

they were beautiful faces... blooming full of life..
together they shared the tales of yester years..

Together they laughed together they cried
And the tea poured down into each cup
toasted and tasted every night

I closed my eyes I fell asleep
And saw myself on a hilltop
Beautiful it was one isolated rock
Surrounded by birds that few in flocks

And as i looked down the hill
there lay familiar ground
A pretty land of lost souls
Made up of sand and mud
there were little huts
I knocked on one and another
There was not a sound

Tired and desperate i turned back
And saw dead shadows around
voices and laughters and tales lost and found...
shadows of people that fought and loved
And fought again...

In the mist of Silence

silent notes are falling behind...
shadows buried.. some alive...
we make new ones as we grow...
some have lagged long behind..

silent self... brings me closer to myself..
my being.. falling in love with the silent nymph..
i want to hug myself today...
not cause i have suddenly lost all my love to this universe i have so far treasured to be a part of,,,

i want to hug myself today..
and wipe my tears..
and pat on my back..
say its going to be fine...
sing myself to a soothing sleep..
cause i love... the little me,
who has seen all these years wipe in dust...
crushed in storm,
fallen in autumn... frozen so long...
born every summer.. lived all along...

and so after so long.. today i write to my silence again..
call for her.. to take me back...
i have sinned not listened to her so long...
abandoned her whilst i was blindfold by my hapless mind...

dont know how to make up to my silence.. my love..
my only little friend who loved me.. all along..

i left her behind thought its time to live a life..
beyond her silent cages i shall find music of soul

but forget did i her soothin song,
she jingles in my ear every night...
she brought it with the morning sun...
to the tunes of her silent self.. iv spent many winter nights..
she did not look back once.. nor did she complain...
in her silent being... she quietly walked away...

and when i think today wasted.. and lost..
i ponder all those years... i spent while she was gone...

did i hear a cry... a laughter, or a sigh...

did i hear the broken glass.. saw it flowing down..
there it is lying still... scattered on the ground...
made up of some foolishness... in the night we sang a song..
while we cried and fought.. and shouted the song of peace...

but where did i loose it while shouting so loud...
my little one ran away, in my sleep i saw the grave...

did i drop a tear.. or the rain fell quite hard that day...
did it hurt.. or did it not...
was i in pain.. or did i smoke pot...